Well, for the first time I don't feel like blogging...I don't want to talk about it...I don't want to say it out loud...but, if I did that the purpose of this blog would be jeopordized...i write this to help other couples that are faced with infertility......to say that I am bummed is an understatement......i run the statistics and don't like what i see....normal fertilization rate is 75%...not every follicle always has an egg (remember last time i had 16 follicles and they only got 4 eggs) due to my age quality is likely low....blah, blah blah....of course, all of this I already knew except for the number 4....basically, I need to remain stress free (yeah right!) and pray really hard....ok, I can do that....well, at least the praying part....I have been working on the stress part...a massage, a pedicure...got a hair appointment....i just need to keep busy....maybe I should take Bec's approach...just pretend i'm on holiday....oh, I did forget to mention another issue...this time i'm responding too fast...im 3 days ahead of schedule...and gene will not arrive until late thursday night!! Yikes!! Dr. Shivani is going to try to slow it down...will likely do egg retrieval on friday!!! Last time they had to really crank up the meds but this time I'm taking less and going faster...go figure...but the problem is if you go too fast then your eggs dont mature properly and they don't fertilize...yeah...something else to worry about....I guess I will take it one day at a time...at least she is not making me take that painful im injection like last time...so far, only subcutaneous (in my belly fat!)...that is a plus for having a chunky tummy....makes the injections much easier....ok..my pity part is over and I guess i will get ready for tomorrow...of course, Dr. Shivani only counts the "good follicles" ; she said there are a few more but they are not big enough...can't wait to see what kind of mischief my follicles get into tonight!! rene'
I'm sorry that more aren't ready, but it's wonderful news that you are responding so well to the medicine this time around! Hang in there! Best wishes!
ReplyDeleteRene' I know it's hard to find these things out, I just found out some tough news too, so I say this to both of us....they are just numbers, important numbers to us, but they can't determine everything, they don't have all the say in what happens. I know you want the best chance, but big numbers don't always mean that. So it is more important to try to not focus on that, be hopeful and as stress free as possible, k??
ReplyDeletehi Rene, i replied to this almost immediately when i got an alert on my bb because i really had to tell you because of how i felt but my smart phone couldnt send it, bet it was too long. honestly Rene, it is NOT how many but how good!!!!!1 it only takes 1 and results vary all the time. i know a few people who planted 1 and had twins!!! i am praying and wishing that for you. there is no formula for success on this journey and it is only God that does it. please stop stressing and lets pray for success and stay relaxed.i really feel you but know there are a lot of people praying for you. hugs.
ReplyDeleteNo need to worry, it only takes one embryo so realx and dont stress (i know easier said than done)...both my times was EXACTLY like yours, i even ended up with only 2 eggs from my first time, but all you need is ONE!!!
ReplyDeleteGOOD LUCK hun, and think of that one that will steal ur heart away :)